OK so as far as Christmas is concerned my blog has been slightly absent! I have written about my Christmas card tradition, and hinted at other things but I haven’t actually done anything really Christmassy. Now this is in part because I’ve had a huge problem getting into the Christmas spirit. I did my shopping, putting my usual effort into getting people gifts that I think that they’ll enjoy or like. But when it’s come to anything else I’ve really struggled. Part of it is that at this time of year we’re reminded of all those things that a lot of us want like families, children etc. Now I find this particularly hard (new year is always a huge struggle but not normally Christmas) because it’s all I’ve ever wanted. When asked as a child what I wanted to be I have always answered with a mum first then other things if pushed further. Seeing everyone with their children it’s a double edged sword because while I’m so happy for them and love seeing my friends and their families enjoying themselves I also am reminded of how lonely I am. I don’t have a partner even, let alone the child or children I’ve always craved. It’s this loneliness that has made Christmas harder and harder to get into fully with each passing year. I have a lovely family, don’t get me wrong, and I love them dearly. I love my niece and sister so much and I am so blessed with my mum as my friend, carer and just amazing woman and a dad who while we’ve had our issues in the past (see my other blog post on this) I love and always will. I also have my uncle Hogan who comes down regularly and I love dearly too. But while this family mean so much to me they are my family by birth, they’ve not chosen to be with me and I’ve not chosen to be with them. I have no one who wants to be with me just because they love me and choose to stay. I have no child of my own to take to see the panto or father Christmas to share the magic with and it really is hard for me. So yet again Christmas and New year come along, yet again I’m alone and for some reason this year it has hit me even harder than usual, I don’t know why. So I’ve been trying to find distractions and some semblance of some Christmas spirit and so with that motivation……….. I decided that I would do a bit of Christmas in a post (or blogmas)!! Oh alright so possibly it’s a bit of a hotch-potch but I hope that you enjoy anyway and it’ll distract me a bit to write it!!
Now I’m really lucky as my mum is amazing and her decorating at Christmas is, in my opinion, as good as anyone’s. This year she wanted a change and has gone above and beyond. I’m in awe of her ideas which look amazing. They are the right mix of Christmas, homeliness and class.
So without further ado, these are the wonderful decorations in my house. My tree……
My living room, complete with my niece’s decorated tree (I made the angel a few years ago in a craft workshop)………
My big Christmas pleasure is is my wrapping. I love taking my time and choosing ribbons and paper, deciding which way to wrap the present and making them look (in my opinion again) good. My hands, POTS, fatigue and pain levels have made this much harder. I can only do a few at a time and then have to have a long rest in between to recover as much as I can before I carry on. Now this has been a rather drawn out process, unfortunately whilst I’m wrapping things do look rather chaotic……….
I think you’ll agree with me that it’s rather a bombsite! However, this does turn into this……….
What do you think? I love trying to make each parcel look good and although it is extremely hard for me to do, I still do as much of this as I can. Mum does sometimes help with the actual wrapping itself, especially when it all just gets too much and I can’t manage any more.
So that’s my Christmas blog in a nutshell! It was, I hope, at least a little bit interesting. So tell me, what do you like doing best for preparing for Christmas? Do you like wrapping, or find it a chore? What do you like decorating best? Are you minimalist or all out Christmas overload, or somewhere in the middle? Why not share with me, I’d love to hear about your Christmas decorations etc. What do you think of mum’s amazing decorating skills? I know she’d love to hear what you think. Until next time, these are my knitted elves Holly and Jolly (from a kit from Let’s Knit). We are hiding them for my niece to find so that she can get her Christmas treat on Saturdays and Sundays when she comes round. Hope you like them.